And My Own Change Journey
In 2005 I woke up one day and realised I was married to a man I didn’t love, with no career, interests or hobbies. I had no idea what I wanted to do in life or what made me happy. My whole life had been led by what I thought I "should" do and what others expected of me. For 33 years I had put everyone else's needs first, my cup was completely empty and I thought to myself “how on earth did I end up here?”
However, my next thought was, “what’s wrong with you?”. I wasn’t being abused, I lived in a nice house, I had two boys I loved, there were people who were far worse off than me. Who was I to be complaining?
But I also came to the conclusion that living a mediocre life wasn’t enough for me, that I deserved to be happy, deserved to find out what it is that I want from life, so I left my marriage.
This was one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life.
I went on a deep journey of self-awareness. I started to ask myself, ‘What will make you happy?’ ‘What do you want to achieve in life?’ and a very big part of that was my spiritual journey into ‘Why am I here?’ ‘Why have I created this life?’
Unhappiness, separation, divorce and healing set me off on my Change Journey of self-discovery, self-confidence, self-belief, self-love, self-acceptance, self-respect, self-improvement, self-expansion, self-worth and self-care.
And it hasn’t finished yet. As I continue to grow and expand in my self-awareness, my Change Journey continues to evolve. It’s a lot smoother and definitely more fun than what it was at the start, but that’s what a journey is about isn’t it? . . . it’s a journey. One with many ups and downs, twists and turns and even a few changes in direction occasionally.
My Change Journey has brought so many lessons, and I am grateful for each and every one. I know from my experiences that I am strong and resilient and I know that no matter how hard a situation gets, I can get through it on my own steam.
My life now is one lived with joy. I am married to the most amazing man. My boys have both grown into funny, responsible, wonderful, charming men, whose lives I’m truly proud to be a part of. I do what brings me joy. I’ve completely changed my perspective on things (and people), so they don’t bother me anymore. My self-awareness grows every day. And I continue to be inspired by what I find.
I am truly honoured to be sharing my Change Journey learnings with women from all around the world so that they too can realise that they deserve better than a mediocre life and that by gaining self-awareness, they can live a life they love.